Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Don't you just hate it when someone judges you based on appearance, or the way you speak, the things that you like?
Personally, i feel that we should give people a chance to show us who they really are, before having the whole "first impression" thing and judging them based on that. It can really destroy potential friendships with people whom may treasure friendships even more than other people. The receiving end usually has it worse. What about their self-esteem? Confidence?
Try not to bother when other people judge you, especially if you know that youre not like that. Dont take it to heart. Remember, God is the only judge, so you dont have to worry about other people judging you. That one not valid one ;p So dont worry too much about it alright? :)
p/s: I need a new blogskin. I love wordpress themes but i cant edit them into blogger :(
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
thanks.
for staying up till 3.30 am to listen to my one whole long grandmother story.
its actually more like a few grandmother stories.
for not saying anything, except words of encouragement and advice.
for waiting for me to finish my story before any inputs.
for being frank with me and not treating me like a freak.
for taking it seriously.
for believing me. and believing IN me.
:)
Sunday, July 12, 2009
love is patient, love is kind. a very well known verse. makes me think, how can you love someone and yet be so impatient with him/her? ah, the complications of life.
being a christian, its not easy. there are instances where you fall so many many times, yet, theres this unexplainable strength that helps you to get up again. the feeling that someone is constantly guiding you throughout the things that you do, and times when you feel like someone is gently chiding you on. life's not all bliss, there ARE times when you feel that someone is reprimanding you.
"Treat him with love and patience. If someone wants to slap you, turn your other cheek to him also"
honestly, its really hard to live like that. turning your other cheek when someone wants to slap you. especially for someone like me, whom others would deem as a "fighter cock". i'd probably be giving that felar a punch instead. o.o but hey, if you truly care for that person, and if you really want to honor God, why not do it? something good always comes out of every problem. and God's purpose for you is always good. so, i guess, even if its supercalifragilisticexpial-hard to do so, you need to drop yourself lower, much lower. whatever you do in your life, its to honor God. something i've learnt, but have yet to grasp.
ah. one thing i AM glad for is that i've learned to open up my heart to listen to Him. i look back at the times where i went to church and stuff. compare it to the present, its a whole lot different. last time, i was the kind of person, who did not go against the Word, yet did not truly follow it. it was an "aiyah, dont care-lah" attitude towards it. AHAHA. not the greatest example to follow ;p
all in all, i really thank God for the CF, for FGT, and for Suyin, Tim, Daniel and Andrew. these people all mean a lot to me. not only have they been there for me when i failed, they have helped me grow a lot, spiritually. and i mean A LOT. i've learnt to listen when God is speaking to me. and thanks to Daniel, i've learnt to trust in God.
some non-believers might ask, why we want to live that way. a way that sometimes makes you lose your self-esteem, live a life that is constantly giving, and trying so hard to be a slave of righteousness. that sort of thing. i guess, one would never truly understand what it means to make God happy, unless they develop a personal relationship with Him. when someone means so much to you, you dont want to disappoint that person, you want to live the best you can for that person, to show that you love him/her too. to obey your parents because you love them. you dont do bad things cos it hurts them. and thats how i deem Christianity so far. you just want to live a life that honors God because you love Him. thus you honor his Word too. you try not to sin because it hurts God.
living a Christian life. definitely not easy, but it's not that difficult either. because God is always there to hold your hand, to walk by your side and guide you. eventhough i keep falling countless times, disappointed God with my many actions and decisions, God has never left me. He's been there for me always. He's been my strength throughout. And you just feel so secure you know?
That's how i feel about it. :)
Saturday, June 20, 2009
having not sung in a choir for quite awhile, i now realize what i miss about it. why i prefer choir to solo singing.
the harmonization, bonding sessions between choir members, and us just having the same passion- to sing :)
would love to do an acappella choir thingy one day :)
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
funny. hahahaha. kinda like an inside thing ;p
Andrew: eh, so not gonna L4D today?
Lind: Yeah! of course not, doubt anyone would wanna play today.
Andrew: Are you sure...
*andrew pictures what would happen*
5 hours later.
"Tim: Hey you wanna go left for dead. my med friends are going.
Lind: ahh, i dont know.
Eric: L4D. lets go. only play an hour and even jason is coming
Lindley: oh really jason is coming? okay. just one hour.
*****
3 hours later.
Lind: TANK IS COMING!!! *screams*
Jason: Look its your vampire fantasy!
Tim: OI. Listen to me and RUN
Eric: *runs around with gas tank*"
AHAHAAH this sms at 11.43am made my day. oh the funny things that we do. LMAO.
eric the liability LMAO omgosh im still laughing at this =.=
Sunday, June 7, 2009
i often wonder, are happy people not given the liberty to be upset over things?
are they just supposed to be happy all the time? im only human, i think, i feel, i hurt, just like any other being. expecting me to be happy 24/7 is like asking me to put on a mask.
a mask, once put on, is hard to take off. society just keeps expecting more and more from you. and when you finally find the chance to strip it away, you think twice, because you dont want to let the people who matter down.
emotions are a way of dealing with something or someone which matters a whole lot to you. i dont see whats wrong in feeling sad. some say i get a tad bit too sensitive. but what the heck, just because i'm a happy person it doesn't mean that i cant feel sad at times. and for a good reason too. i don't go bawling my eyes out just because Man Utd lost a match.
ah. screw the world sometimes.
it would help a whole lot if people started putting themselves in your position before saying anything. and why do people nod and say that they understand, when they dont? it annoys me =.=
Sunday, May 31, 2009
hm. i often wonder why i feel so detached from my family.
i do thank god for giving me the ability to smile and laugh genuinely everyday amidst all these problems :)
whee. PSA done. maths assignment handed in. physics project completed. now i just need to enter hardcore mode to finish all my math tutorials, from week 2-9. *cry* sigh. anyone wanna offer their papers to me? or even better, do my work? i'll give you a nice hug LOL.
ernest ernest, wherefore art thou?!
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man. this whole thing is confusing. im still hanging on to that hope. would i be able to stand up again after it shatters?
Sunday, May 24, 2009
have i reached that level which allows me to change it without any hesitation or regrets?
yet a better question, have i truly given up on that baseless hope for good?
i make a very bad judge. for the first time ever, a friend came to me for advice regarding his relationship. he mentioned something which sparked annoyance, a little bit of anger and i think the most obvious emotion, hurt. and yeah i kinda blasted him for it. just because of what happened in the past. hm. interesting. first time i get emotional when giving out advice. this is bad. as someone once said "emotions are a way of us dealing with something or someone we value"
haha. never thought of it that way.
i think im not suited for engineering. i miss writing. gone were the days when my blog was a pleasure for me to read. it was more personal. especially THOSE times. i liked it when people said that they could relate to what i wrote. time to get back into writing mode!
i suck at optics LOL. anyone would be so kind as to help me with physics/maths/dynamics/PSA?
finals in 3 weeks. need to start studying seriously. need to play the piano more often.
i feel so loved by my engineering people. :) :) :)
Friday, May 22, 2009
1. i have to stop playing L4D.
2. i need to start studying seriously.
3. people in uni are nice.
4. stop saying that im nicholas' gf =.=
5. i love life now :)
Thursday, May 14, 2009
there's always the question of "where do the missing socks go in the universe?"
but has anyone ever wondered, where all the unanswered questions go to? thoughts that we would like to know, they just die away when no one can answer them. do they go to the back of your mind? your brain 'memory' storage compartment? only to come out again when something triggers it?
i have a lot of unanswered questions right now. but maybe, i dont want to know the answer.
sometimes, ignorance is bliss. you dont get hurt.
