Thursday, October 29, 2009
came out from exam 15 minutes early. doesnt mean i found it easy kay! woah. tough wei. interesting paper though. but funny thing was, during the reading time, i glanced at all the questions, and only KNEW how to do about 2/14 questions. hahah. and i took time off to pray. 10 mins yo! and and after that i felt this sense of calmness in me throughout the whole paper. and i just picked up my pen, and the answers just started flowing! dont know whether the answers were right though, but they made sense i think. i only skipped 3 very very very minor subquestions and one whole question worth 4 marks. LOL. but considering that i didnt know how to start at all, i think its really amazing.
thanks god :)
ah. library. cheng hong and christina are sleeping. andrew is studying. NOT studying. shafiq with his jedi robe. and. me. blogging! :)
thank youu chris for the prayer sms.
and cheng hong, for giving me that very badly needed verse: Be still and know He is God.
fuh. power. i really needed that.
thanks gene for calling me when i said i was feeling nervous :)
thanks andrew for giving me that hug after my exam :)
hm. well. surprisingly im not AS upset as i thought i'd be. a little, since, i dont know what kinda marks i'll get. but. i guess this is where faith steps in :)
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Beautiful.
Those were the words to describe it. Nothing else.
The sound that filled the room. Melodic, with emotions just flowing through the entire piece. Sonatas by Mozart, Impromptus by Debussy.
Classical, Romantic, then jazz. Worship songs. The sounds were coming from an object, with polished brown wood. Slender fingers dancing over the keys of ivory white and smaller keys of charcoal black.
An elegant beast..the piano. Something that was so inanimate could produce a scene so magical. Letting the notes just flow through your soul. The birds chirping, the sound of the flowing river, sadness, sorrow, joy. A love ballad. The stormy weather. Even the cheekiest mood could be brought to life from a sheet of musical notes.
But the best thing of all, was the intimacy that could be felt between God and I, while playing the piano. Pouring out your heart and soul into the music. A gift, given by God. A composition, understood only by you and Him. A secret message in the form of a song.
And I intend to use that gift. :)
Thursday, October 22, 2009
ernest!
i miss you! haih.
lind: haih. miss you lah.
ernest: its like LDR. except. this is LDS. long distance siblinghood.
AHAH. you know how much i miss you or not?!
faster get your ass back here :)
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
i came across a blogpost that really touched my heart and i decided to share it here! :)
*taken from puanchong.blogspot.com"
A powerful testimony
It was a usual casual day in school when upon coming back from my rounds I found a piece of writing on my table. It was entitled:
Andy Gan's Testimony
Andy Gan Hsien Loong, awarded the most active student in co-curricular activities of SMK Seafield in 2003 entered into the Malaysian Book Of Records as the "Youngest Golf Overall Champion" at the Sarawak Junior World Masters Golf Championship. A handicap 3 golfer at just 10 years old, Andy was internationally recognised as he emerged victorious in MSSS Golf, Johor Royal Precept Junior Open, Sapura Junior Selection , MacGregor Hong Kong Junior Open, to name a few. He has done Seafield proud.
From his testimony, I learnt about his predicament :
- diagnosed with leukemia (October 2007)
- ruptured appendix (N0vember 2007)
- bone marrow transplant
- relapse in mid 2008
- GVHD attack - chickenpox rashes (October 2008)
The above is quite a mouthful and painful to the eyes. One actually cringes at the recount of the sufferings and yet Andy has put many to shame with his outlook in life...although I have gone through a tough experience, there is a bigger picture there painted by the Lord in my life. Hence, I do not need to worry but just to delight in Him.
Andy continues to testify ;
The Lord is ever faithful and led me to use a book entitled "Give Me Forty Days of Healing" by Feeda Bowers in my devotional time with Him...wow everyday was like something new in store for me and He speaks every time and everyday as I first gave my covenant time to the Lord, I could commune with Him with much intimacy...
Covenant time...intimacy with God. I wonder how many people spend such quality time with God? Andy is right. It is through such soul searching times that much strength and hope is drawn. I am strengthened through his walk with God. You have taught us what it means to be in the presence of a merciful and loving God. At 21, you have gone through much and you have brought many to shame when they take their relationship with God so carelessly.
Another excerpt:
...on a Monday night, while having dinner at home, the GVHD attack came suddenly and attacked me on my skin...I felt very itchy and uncomfortable. My parents were worried and thought of rushing me to SJMC. But I did not want to be warded again...
I wanted to stay at home and spend time in the presence of the Lord...
I am not ashamed to admit that I broke down in my room at this statement...in the presence of the Lord... My heart tore as a mother and as a teacher to you and as I felt the presence of such a strong and meaningful relationship you have with Jesus. I envied you and long for such intimacy with God. You further related...
Thus I prayed and claimed in Jesus' name that all the attack and discomfort would be taken away and new skin would be restored to me. Praise the Lord ! After an hour, my skin condition returned to normal and I need not go to the hospital. Praise the Lord...I hope my testimony will encourage your faith to rise...prayers can move mountains.
Thank you Andy for being such a great testimony and helping us to put our perspectives right in life. You have taught us not to complain about small little discomforts but to be grateful each day for all the good things and then to count our blessings one by one.
Andy, our good God loves you. You know that. Nothing can happen to you without the permission of Jesus. But most of all ; He will provide you the strength. Be strong and courageous just as he reminded Joshua. Shalom to you too, Andy.
Monday, October 19, 2009
God's the creator of everything right?
so did He create evil?
Saturday, October 17, 2009
for once. jonathan lim has said something wise.
"im gonna cut all source of communications off my laptop and handphone and see whether i can still study or not lol"
WOW. i see pigs flying. did he actually say that!?
hahahah, just joking jon :P
Friday, October 16, 2009
yesterday, i kept a wise person up late at night.
yesterday, he gave me amazing words of encouragement.
yesterday, i poured my heart out.
"The person who wants something more badly wins...
So I'm very confident that you'll stay, somehow. You'll be like that lil' girl who defied everyone's expectations somehow. I'm also very confident that you'll fight a good fight for what you believe is rightfully yours."
thanks gene :)
a persona. a mask. another face wrapped around the real one, to hide what you're truly feeling.
Monday, October 12, 2009
You know my every hurt. my every teardrop.
You know the way i feel about everything and anything.
You're just amazing. everytime i feel a sadness, i just look to You and everything is okay. :)
Thank You for catching every single teardrop. Thank You for being next to me when i cry my eyes out. Thanks for being there. :)
HAHAH so weird. i think God reads blogs too :P
Saturday, October 10, 2009
maybe i do after all.
hm. free will. i wondered about that too. i did ask myself questions, why did god give us free will? when he knew that we were going to sin? stuff like that.
and then something totally amazing happened.
as i was thinking and feeling quite disturbed about it, i did my quiet time. and voila.
Job 1:1-12. my quiet time verse. about Job. and free will!
now is that coincidence or what, i think not! :):):)
anyways. back to what i read. i will just copy and paste everything here, so that people wont misunderstand.
WARNING: LONG POST AHEAD.
"Because God has endowed us with a power that He Himself possesses- the power to choose-each of us is able to determine out character and decide what kind of person we want to be.
In our reading today we see Satan standing in the presence of God and being asked,'Have you considered my servant Job? There is no one on earth like him; he is blameless and upright, a man who fears God and shuns evil.' Clearly God found great delight in Job's decision to respond to the gifts He had given him with an attitude of thankfulness. It is this freedom to choose what kind of people we want to be that gives us the ability to delight the heart of God. If He had to wring gratitude out of us what kind of pleasure would that give Him? C.S.Lewis said, 'A world of automata-of creatures that worked like machines-would hardly be worth creating. The happiness which God designs for His higher creatures is the happiness of being free, voluntarily united to Him and to each other... And for that they must be free'
Job's freedom to choose to delight God also, of course, gave him the ability to sadden Him. Lewis explains why God gives us this kind of power:'If a thing is free to be good, it is also free to be bad. And free will is what has made evil possible. Why then did God give us free will? Because free will, though it makes evil possible, is also the one thing that makes possible and love or goodness or joy worth having. '
As we read the book of Job we realize that there were times when Job's statements must have saddened God, but his conclusion at the end would no doubt have gladdened Him. Out wills can work against God or with Him. How good it is for both humankind and God when the will works with Him"
okay there. done. ahah!
i love God. <3
Friday, October 9, 2009
hm. Taylor Swift's Teardrops on my Guitar.
i love the lyrics to most of her songs. they really hit home. something you can relate to.
ouchies. lol
